/rant

i need to stop being an airhead. like seriously.

i don't know what is wrong with me but i can't seem to hold a thought in my head for longer than 5 seconds anymore. it's like trying to sieve water. after 5 seconds half my brain wanders off, while the other half continues to pretend to itself that it is thinking about the issue at hand. i have to alternate between doing 5 different things at once because i can't seem to concentrate on any one thing for more than 10 minutes. even 10 minutes take extreme effort. i don't think it's even adhd, 'cause even though my attention is severely deficit, i am in no way hyperactive. it's like, my mind either just goes into a total zen state, i.e. completely blank, or there'll be thoughts racing at 100miles per minute, and nothing makes sense to me.

i'm trying, but it's so hard to study, because it takes me so long to digest anything, and i can forget something told to me 3 minutes ago. why are my omega pills not working?? i eat fish too. and drink vinegar. and some berry concentrate drink. nothing seems to be working #%@(&!

in other news i'm suffering from terrible shoulder ache and arm ache from lugging my laptop and books around. and an indescribable neck ache, from sleeping awkwardly last night, if you count waking up more than 6 times in the night sleeping.

to sum it up, i've been living like a zombie (the irony); no brain + extremely stiff