Yet again.

Where have I been the past couple of days, you ask?

Not studying.

Contracted a vile bout of stomach flu, so the past couple of days (from thursday evening, to be precise) was spent alternating between puking and feeling like crap. Two days of not eating (or rather, I tried to eat but everything just came right back up, snack, dinner, blood and all. Like a waterfall, except not a pretty sight *grim*), 18 hours straight spent moaning in bed on Friday, feeling feverish and breaking out in cold sweat, not knowing to stand, sit or lie down because they all felt equally horrible. So on Friday night I finally went to the doc and got meds. which helped with the vomiting and the tummy pain and bloatedness, so I could actually digest some food. ...which led to diarrhea. And the meds totally knock you out. Either that or you find yourself in some heavy drowsy daze and barely able to coordinate your limbs or process a thought. And what can be worse than all that, you ask? Why, getting the period at the same time of course. My body clock works in miraculous ways.

...and I just munched down a bag of chips 'cause I feel marginally better. Let's hope I don't regret it later.

...aaand exams are in less than a month's time I am so screwed fml.

lamenting my plight.

things have not been going well of late.

for one i am still majorly sick. even though i've FINISHED MY MEDICATION. i'm beginning to think that this might be my penance for all the wrongs i have ever done and all my inherent flaws. i must be serving punishment for something. i mussttt. why else am i suffering like that??? (T__T) a hacking cough where gasping for breath just sets off another round of coughing is not funny. so is trying to choke out a sentence and having it end in a coughing fit. so is coughing till you puke.

miki just gave me the shock of my life by strolling out onto the planter. i live on the tenth floor by the way. so there i was, searching for her around the house, when suddenly i saw what i thought was her reflection in the glass. but the reflection looked odd, 'cause her back was to me, and for some reason she had her head between the metal grilles, and she was peering down as though enjoying scenery below. and it suddenly struck me in an uncomprehending way that she was outside the windows. had to calmly coax her back in and thereafter i went into another horrendous coughing fit from the shock.

i have not had a good sleep in three days. lying in any position gives me a nose block and does nothing for my coughing. my coughing exacerbates my sore throat. i have sore lungs and sore abs from coughing. i've been waking every other hour to roam the house and DRINK PLENTY OF WATER (yes people i know the only advice/help you can give me is to tell me to drink plenty of water and i swear i've been guzzling water like a hippo BUT IT IS NOT WORKINGG I ONLY HAVE WATER RETENTION *cries) and i think i've slept less than 4 hours every night for the past few nights.

i want to eat so many things but i can't taste anything. i scalded my tongue on porridge without noticing it. i can't smell anything, not even the pungent smell of nail polish remover.

i can't decide if this bout of sickness is worse than that awful fever i had last june. it probably is. at least i could sleep then, even if i was in a delirium for days. the present always seems so much worse. not to mention all the other current worries plaguing me. if i could take a sleeping pill, i would. to get a good night's rest. i'm sure everything would seem so much better then.

本当に惨め〜

fml.

college problems #101:
one week break.
three papers and two presentations to rush.
fall sick with fever and flu.

what recess week?

misery loves company.

time really crawls when you're suffering

someone out there must have been too jealous of how happy i've been this holiday, and decided i needed a little misery. no, make that major misery. it started with an innocent sore throat last wednesday, but by thursday afternoon it had escalated into a high fever and a flu, which were terrible. TERRIBLE, i tell you. it came with a headache which not only had your head throbbing as a whole, you could also feel the five different parts of your head that felt like there were screws being driven in. eyes were swollen, nose was both blocked and running (how is that even possible), and all my muscles were aching. even my eyeballs ached. i am not exaggerating. they really did. i spent the night walking to and fro between the kitchen and my bedroom and my bathroom to switch the cool pack for my forehead and to gulp down cups of water and to then pee the water out. i swear the night felt like it would never end. every time i woke up only one hour had passed. when morning came my temperature still hadn't gone down. and for some perverse reason i decided i did not want to see a doctor and take medication and i would conquer this myself. but i ended up popping 7 panadol pills in 2 days -.-"

by some miraculous force my temperature went down to only a slight fever on friday afternoon right before the KMW concert on friday night, so i felt well enough to attend. but after more than 3 hours of fun and excitement (particularly the last part where i screamed ahem like a crazy fangirl for 2ne1 and big bang - yes, even though i had no voice), my throat died a second death and my temperature rose again, and i had to retire to bed with a fever. by saturday night the fever had subsided but i still had the sore throat and flu, and the virus decided to morph into a cough as well.

so now here i am, still trying to recover from that bout of sickness. my throat's still not back to its normal condition, and i still have a rather hoarse, nasal kind of voice that just sounds plain nasty. but i'd still say it's an improvement from last week.

okay this is just a post for me to whine 'cause i haven't been this sick in a long time. and it always takes me forever to recover. sigh. bye. i shall post about the KMW concert soon.

(兔)飞猛进

happy chinese new year! (a little late, but still)

it's been really hectic lately, what with falling sick and falling behind in school work, all the visiting during chinese new year, back to school, rushing tutorials and assignments...feeling rather screwed, but i'm trying hard not to panic. i really want to do better this semester.

on a random note, i read the fengshui book and it says that this year will be a better year for all the 肖马的人, in love, career, and life in general. hopefully it's true.

SUCKS TO BE SICK

why now, of all times?! why right before chinese new year?? all the cny goodiesss. that i CAN'T EAT. dammit. and i can't decide what's making me more miserable; the runny nose that that's taking up almost a box of tissue, or the sometimes blocked nose that makes it hard to breathe and sleep, or the sore throat that makes it hard to swallow, or the sore gums and aching jaw that makes it hard to close my mouth, or the ALLERGIC REACTION to the medicine the doctor gave that is making my right eye so puffy it looks like i got punched.

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