self-help

Words left unsaid hanging heavy in the air, like ripe fruit waiting to fall from trees. But not yet, not yet, whispers the wind. The distance to the ground is too far, the drop too scary. You are not ready. The fruits do not dare to let go of the branches, for fear of smashing on the ground and splattering. But what if they hold on for too long, and they start rotting on the trees? What if the light fragrance changes to the pungent smell of decay? And in the end they will fall anyway, as rotten fruit on the ground.

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In other news, I've forgotten how good it is to wake up early, with a sense of purpose and a list of things to do for the day and the satisfaction one gets from checking off the to-do list one by one. I was kind of in a funk just a few days ago; I think school does that to you sometimes. especially when you're studying for exams. Everyday it's just wake up, go to school, study, go home, sleep, repeat. The routine wears you down after a while. At least, it gets to me. And no one can help you unless you help yourself. Even being depressed gets tiresome after a while, and sometimes I think you just have to make a conscious decision to cheer up, to find something to distract yourself and be happy, instead of dwelling on how tedious and humdrum life is right now. All the while studying for the exams of course. That said I still can't wait for all this to end so I can play~ o(≧∇≦)o

And now, for some gratuitous pictures, just because.

No make day! With janeegg.

Some people in school kindly informed me that I do not look very different without my eyeliner. But you know who the honest people are when suddenly over lunch they start confessing to you various occasions when they got shocked by how small your eyes really are (-_-") I think this means I have to go around occasionally without my eyeliner to remind people how I really look like, and no it's not because I'm really tired or because I'm under the weather.

GPOY

The red queen