sleepless.

too tired to do anything, too awake to sleep

the past two nights have been especially terrible. mainly because i tried going to bed at saner hours of 1, 2am, and ended up barely sleeping at all. each time i wake up i find that only one hour has passed...and then another hour. and then another hour and another and another...and then i hear my sis preparing for school at 6. and then i hear my dad returning at 7. and then i try to imagine myself sleeping and just when i think i can finally fall into a deeper sleep the alarm rings for 8.30. i switch it off, i climb back into bed. and then it rings again after five minutes 'cause i only clicked the snooze button. i jolt awake, i give up, i go to brush. it feels like i never went to bed.

i do not want to sleep at 4am! it's so tiring. but sleeping earlier is making me utterly exhausted. is it so hard to just have a good night's sleep?!