memory loss

have you ever tried to remember something that you did on a certain day and your mind just draws up a blank no matter how hard you try to recall? it's CREEPY. and it's freaking me out. i stared for ten minutes at the blank space on my organizer in which i did not write anything for that day, and for the life of me i couldn't remember what i did on that day. i checked my emails to see if anything would trigger my memory, but nothing. i checked my blog to see if i posted something on that day. nothing. i check my tumblr to see if some particular quote jumps out at me. none. someone has since informed me that apparently i woke up late and went for class on that day. and i have since remembered that after class i went to wander around and bought candy.

but it's not just that one day. i flipped to previous pages and here and there i left blank spaces. and it feels strangely like someone's been randomly blotting out my days. 'cause i can't remember what i did on those days. no words, no drawings, no quotes, no nothing. i don't know what i did. is that creepy or what. i think i'll meticulously write in my organizer from now on.

and Aunt is over to stay and she attempted to have a htht with me tonight in which she tells me i should get as many boyfriends as i can. okay i am deliberately misquoting her. i want to tell her boys do not grow on roadside trees. but i love my Aunt, so i don't. i smile and nod and say yes. and have i ever mentioned that i hate having to justify myself? especially to people i do not know, and do not care. so loved ones aside, i do not really give a damn what Random Strangers say/ask. it kinda hurts when people you thought were your friends do it to you though. i don't know why, but it does. in a i-thought-you-knew-me-better-than-that kind of way. it's hard to explain.

wow. long post. too many words. i should go take more nice photos.