heartbreak.

miki's walking around the house so pitifully. the vet has given her a cone to wear around her head so she can't lick her wound, but the damn thing looks too heavy around her neck. but i get so anxious in the middle of the night 'cause she's managed to take it off twice on her own and what if she gets her wound infected?? but she hangs her head when she walks about, and she walks in this strange gait and keeps bumping around into things and even walks backwards and i just feel like crying whenever i look at her and feel like taking it off her. but i can't. (and i know there are too many buts in this para but i can't be bothered to think about language at the moment)

and she refuses to look me in the eye anymore and has this really sad look in her eyes and she doesn't respond when i call her and she seems to have only enough energy to give out an occasional hoarse mewl that sounds pathetic compared to her morning calls for me every morning. and she's not eating, only drinking a lot of water and some milk. and it's so difficult trying to get her to take her medication T__T and everything has to be done for the next two weeks what if she starves to death by then??

and i'm reading up all the cat articles i can find right now instead of doing my work i'm supposed to (and i feel so apologetic towards my group mates) but i am so sad right now.

:'(