yes i finally bought the keep calm and carry on book! okay, not finally - i bought it some time ago. i do like all those inspiring quotes and such, you know.
today was a tiring day. two consecutive negotiation sessions on different transactions, when we hadn't even had any negotiation experience at all. in both i felt we kind of conceded too easily on certain issues, but it was good practice i suppose. maybe i will grow to like it; i can see that as a possibility. more so than litigation i think.
i tend to do certain things when i'm feeling stressed/down:
1. spend a lot of $$
i've been buying and buying stuff, both online and off, when i'm just a poor uni student. on top of birthday presents, cards and such, i also bought heels, a hairband, a dress, tons of stickers (yes -.-), craft materials (like books of sticker fabric and patterned paper! and alphabet stamps)...and also food. and also cab fare. but it's not my fault really that the weather is so insanely hot these days, and the thought of trudging through the gardens and climbing up to school makes it so unbearable.
and the other day i felt so guilty for buying frivolous things for my own pleasure that i donated the remainder of my pocket money to red cross for the japan tsunami relief effort. ...so now i'm really broke. but there's still a lot of things i want to buy. cameras, for example. i will talk about them soon.
2. have trouble getting out of bed
it's such a horrible feeling. every night i'm too tired to do anything but too awake to sleep. and the medication i'm taking is not helping by making me feel so bloated some nights i have to sleep propped up at 45 degrees. and every morning i turn off my alarm clock and go back to bed. then i get up repeatedly to check the time, but go back to bed every time. then i get up to brush my teeth and go back to laze in bed. when i finally finally muster the courage to get up and face the world for another day, i have to rush around to get ready and then rush to school and i exhaust myself with the rushing. so i hardly do anything all day really. a vicious cycle, i know. i probably should go swimming or something every morning.
3. cut up things
have i ever mentioned this before? it's an odd habit i have. in the past two weeks i've cut up two pairs of jeans and three magazines. if you're imagining me maniacally tearing my cloth and paper to shreds, well, i don't do that of course. i've neatly cut my jeans into denim shorts. except that i don't actually have the time to start turning them into what i have in mind, so they're just lying around. and the magazine cutouts are scattered across my desk, 'cause i don't really know what i cut those pictures/words for.
i probably should get to bed.
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