BAD MOOD.

it's just one of those weeks where you have totally no idea what you're doing here on earth at all.

recess week started on the wrong foot, literally. it started with me tumbling down the stairs at the mrt station, in full view of passengers who just alighted from the departed train i was trying to catch, as they slowly glided past me and my intense embarrassment---and utter pain---up the escalator. of course i had to stand up and pretend everything was fine, and then not limp to the nearest bench. i've worn those heels so many times, and this is the first time it's failed me. i now have four huge bruises on my legs. the one where i hit the bone is swollen and hurts like hell when i touch it. (to top it off, i was rushing for the first trial advocacy tutorial...which ended after 45 minutes)

today was another so shitty day, it's unbelievable. after feeling miserable and sleeping and doing practically nothing for the whole day---read: i have written nothing for prop law assignment---i went for driving lesson. everything started to go wrong the moment i tried to enter the circuit. first, instructor did not point out the entrance into the circuit until i was almost upon it, and having innate slow reaction, i somehow bungled trying to slow down and change gears and left-turn and then immediately right-turn and whatnot. so the car died. twice. right at the entrance of the circuit. and i hit some curb on the left. and instructor was very agitated. even the security? guard at the entrance looked very sorry, for my instructor or me, i don't know. and then the circuit was equally horrible. i think i have a secret fetish for speed because i cannot seem to go slowly in the circuit---the car either insists on sounding like it's on the verge of dying and inches or suddenly moves too fast. i can actually park, but i hate all those left/right turns where you have to inch, while trying not to let the engine die and steering the wheel furiously at the same time.

to make matters worse, i think the bruises on my left leg clotted up my vessels/arteries and blocked my blood circulation because for the whole lesson my left leg was so numb i couldn't feel anything. not even pins and needles. i.e. i couldn't step on the clutch properly. ohmygod i think i'm going to fail my driving test in the circuit.

and i really have to start on my property law assignment, do company law, and read clt. what recess week?