so suck it up

i'm sure this place looks familiar to some.

alternative quote:
"life is a series of shit-holes. you crawl out of one, just to fall into another."
- yaodong, cynical non-neighbour

i happen to disagree. to fall seems to connote that one does not have a choice. but in everything you do, there is always a choice. even when there seems to be none. because it's simply one choice leading to another. and whatever you choose, you live with. i chose this path, i'm trying to live with it. it's hard though. but there's no one to blame, 'cause it's my choice. but there's this constant lingering doubt, at the back of my mind, whether i'm making the right choice. whether i'm really doing what i want, when most days i'm so unhappy about it. who's to say what's right, what's wrong? no one but yourself. i envy and admire those who have the courage to pursue what they want. i don't have that kind of guts. and so i'm choosing a safe route. maybe, one day.