whimsically.: heady.

i am aching like shit from circuit training. i still felt woozy from drink when i woke up at 10 only to realize it was RAINING ): i.e. no zoo picnic ): ): disappointingg. sigh. last night was...i can't remember what last night was. everything was spinning after 4 shots of tequila and 1 shot of red stuff that the bartender just gave me. he gave me ice blended malibu too (or at least, that's what priscilla says it is...) and i think i drank 2 vodka cranberry and 1 vodka orange. in under 2 hours. ohmygod. no wonder i died so early on. that's more than what i drank the previous time when tian had to drag me out of zouk. okay at least i remember what i drank. and i didn't feel like puking. and there were new friends priscilla and xiaowei and xinli and jason the bartender and the law people i've never spoken to before. and a random 17-year-old australian sitting on the counter in the toilet chatting to us. i remember jon getting me a cup of iced water which really helped and shenton shielding me from random guys on the dancefloor and then jon buying me another cup of green tea at macs when i accidentally spilled mine and shuojie sending me home and all of them repeatedly asking if i was okay. i was fine after sucking on the ice and dancing but mark the birthday boy and ching were puking and feeling and looking totally terrible. and shenton helped ching when she puked and wei hong sent her home and i think the guys are all very nice. and of course jane made sure i stayed with her throughout. except for the part where she got kidnapped to dance on the stage by Weird Guy. she was so sober i don't know how she does it. even the guys were half-gone.

it's strange how my mind still functions even when i can't really walk straight anymore. there are still things i can't help thinking about, and things i know i shouldn't do. even when i felt so reckless, i found myself still holding back, controlling. which is good i guess? i am a control freak after all.

oh no i think i will look terrible in the photos ):

some photos from day out with rjo! ♥